I know you’ve gotten to know a bit about me through other social media outlets but I wanted to make a post more in-depth of who I am and what’s my story.
My name is Adriana Gomez, I was born and raised in Florida and have lived here all 23 years of my life.
I work at a company administering pensions, and I go to school for Business.
I wouldn’t consider my life anything out of the ordinary however I do believe a lot of whats happened to me has shaped the person I am today. I was born in ’92 to my amazing mother; My mom and dad decided to split before I was born.
My mom had me at 18, she was a baby having a baby. I spent a lot of time going back and forth between my grandmother’s house from mom/dad sides it was really hard for me to understand this growing up.
As a child I remember being bullied for my weight, my clothes and so forth. Growing up is such a trying period in everyone’s lives, you’re trying to find yourself and are being influenced by other children.
As I grew older more problems started to arise as a result of my childhood. I felt misunderstood and unloved. I found myself looking for love in all the wrong places and being manipulated by anyone that gave me the time of day.
The bullying never stops it just morphs into another form. In High School I remember feeling like a loser because everyone was having sex and I was still a virgin. My freshman year having no knowledge of sex, my body or myself I tried to find solace in boys.
It was an empty feeling, giving yourself to someone who in return gave you nothing.
During my high school year I was almost finished and getting ready to graduate and just like that my life was changed forever, I was in a fatal car accident that almost resulted in death.
I spent the first two weeks or so in the hospital in a coma induced sedation where I was pumped with all kinds of drugs to manage my pain and help me sleep. The drugs caused me to hallucinate, those two weeks I spent induced were a nightmare. My perception of things were completely skewed and I saw nothing but scary images and felt like everyone in the hospital was out to hurt me.
When I finally awoke from this induced coma I was confused and had no idea what had happened to me. I looked around and became familiar with my surroundings and realized that there were multiple tubes in me, and my neck was being held up by a brace. I mouth to my mother “What happened to me?” but the words wouldn’t come out, just silence. When she looks up at me and finally realizes that I’m awake she explains to me that I was in a car accident two weeks ago and I had been under heavy sedation and multiple surgeries since then. Realizing why I couldn’t speak, I had a tracheostomy tube. My mom and the doctor both explained to me that I had broken both my clavicles, had two fractured vertebra on my neck, I had three fractures in my pelvis, two in my leg, 9 fractures to my ribs, a punctured lung and a tear in my aorta. It was a miracle I was alive.
The rehabilitation was difficult for me. I felt weak and hopeless, I thought I would never get better or ever walk again.
I slowly began to regain strength. I went from not being able to get out of bed to slowly getting out of bed and sitting on the chair next to my bed to finally walking out of the hallway.
After spending 2-3 months in hospitals it was finally time for me to go home. I was healed and healthy and thrown back into the real world to figure myself out. I decided to continue my schooling and get my GED to go to college. I found a job working at a preschool. I found myself feeling unhappy and falling into my old patterns. I started to go out and get drunk with my friends and just engage in debauchery. I felt that empty feeling again. I managed to be in two more car accidents after that… I lost my car and had to face the music that my life was NOT where I wanted to be and the only one that was going to save me was myself!
I was miserable, I had no self-love, no car, a bad job and a horrible mindset. I decided to make a plan for myself to change the state I was in, there was no way in hell I was going to allow anything to defeat me in this lifetime if a car accident couldn’t even kill me.
I quit my job at the preschool and found a job working at another corporation making over $7 more than my previous job. I’ve learned a lot from working at this company, I’ve had to get out of my comfort zone and engage with participants and coworkers and be more outspoken and demand right from wrong. I’ve learned a lot about myself throughout the course of my time being there as well.
I released a lot of the demons I was carrying with me for so long. Friendships that ended for silly reasons (some partly my fault), breaking hearts and having my heart-broken, hurting others, and so much more. I want to take this time as well to extend a HUGE apology to ANYONE I have ever hurt along the way. Please know that nothing I ever did was a result of anything you did but a result of my own inner suffering. I whole heartedly hope you can put everything aside yourself and forgive me as well.
I freed myself from a lot, I finally found love. I’m extremely blessed and fortunate to have met someone who loves me unconditionally. Alfredo has taught me so much about myself in the short amount of time that we’ve been together. I realized all those years of trying to find love in others when I had it within me all along. I also made amends with my father this year and told him how hard it was for me growing up without him but that I forgive him.
Here I am today and I find myself feeling that empty feeling again at work,I feel like it’s time for me to get out of there and really pursue the life I want to live. We’ve decided to make mountains move to pursue this dream and we are working at it everyday to make sure that nothing gets in our way. We’re saving money to invest into something that will continue to grow us money so we can live our dreams of traveling and helping others.